pulled teeth & late passports

may day 2019 culminated in a midnight outdoor dance party in west philly. i placed my portable speaker inside the community lending library case which yielded shockingly excellent acoustics across the entrance of cedar park. earlier in the evening i had brought up things we were looking forward to and things we were fearing in the month ahead.

for me it was simple: i feared my upcoming dentist appointment to get a tooth pulled. and i looked forward to my trip to montreal later in the month for the 20th anniversary of the anarchist book fair.

as i sit at my bullshit job typing this, a lingering dull pain persists where my freak wisdom tooth had been growing out of the side of my gums. now it's just a healing wound. it has been nearly a week and yesterday i finally began eating with both sides of my mouth.

a different type of dull pain continues to persist this week as the calendar gets closer and closer to our departure date for montreal: the bureaucracy of the passport overlords. i made the fateful mistake of not expediting my application to renew. it has now been 4 weeks since my materials were shipped to a po box in philadelphia and i am still passport-less with less than 48 hours to go before my friends and i embark on our journey north.

i remain hopeful. but it has been a rollercoaster.

the past couple days i have received various updates on its status. first, that my new passport had been printed. and then that it was being shipped--hooray! but then...that the estimated arrival date was may 27th: a national holiday here in the states and the day we are planning on leaving montreal. i finally spoke to some humans on the phone who were eventually able to communicate the grand passport wizards that i needed it stat. so now i am getting periodic updates as my passports mysteriously departs from arizona on the long journey to my house in west philly.

the good news is that i didn't have to waste a bunch of additional money i don't have to get it rushed last minute. but now it's completely out of my control and i just anxiously wait.

fingers crossed!

you don't like fridays. you hate capitalism.

we're building a new world, all of my friends and me 

it's not an exact science yet, but we have the technology 

now all we need is an economy where everybody will get enough to eat

we usually have free bagels in the office fridays, but not today. the kitchen is under construction so our collective equilibrium is off. a heart-shaped donut did appear on my desk so perhaps there still is hope. and the days are getting longer. i turn up the volume on my desktop, earbuds in deep, as pat the bunny's music reminds me what it's like to truly feel alive again. but that was yesterday. today is eerily quiet and my body has already begun to enter the social construction of the weekend. and later this afternoon there will be free ice cream.   

'cause our friends, they are enough

and our neighbors are enough

and finally we're enough

please help me be, please help me be

please help me be enough